when there's the blues there's the creditcard

My friends find it probably difficult to analyze my actual emotional state. It is actually new for my persona not to show when I'm sad or hurt since until recent times I've always been very transparent about my emotional life.

My old theory about being transparent about that as the only solution for recovery has turned upside down to never (or seldomly) make people know about this. Like that there's no chance to get on peoples' nerves with winy obsessions, and it helps myself getting better sooner and keeping my head high.

But I am willing to reveal one thing how to know how I'm feeling:

Look at my purchase of things, clothes and the boxes that are delivered to my place or the office. I'm sometimes embarrassed about the frequency of delivery when I have to pick it up at my neighbour's house. Naturally, I order things very often when I'm not well! Though enjoying my acquisitions is only a short-term consolation, it helps! :-)

As Paolo Nutini sings: "...and i thought hello new shoes,  byebye them blues.!"

Paolo Nutini - New Shoes
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Vice versa if there's no new thing you discover on me, I'm good.

Well, that's not entirely true... I admit I especially like renewing my wardrobe ;-) But again it might help friends to „read“ me instead of thinking of me being secretive.

Either way, I love my life and my friends in it. So please don't be mad at me when I'm not talkative, but show up in my life more than as often as you can - love you guys!